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Death of the Black Woman -- an email

...got this in an email...decided to share

While struggling with the reality of being a human instead of a myth,
the strong black woman passed away. Medical sources say she died of
natural causes, but those who knew her know she died from being
silent when she should have been screaming, smiling when she should have been raging, from being sick and not wanting anyone to know because her pain might inconvenience them.

She died from an overdose of other people clinging to her when she
didn't even have energy for herself. She died from loving men who didn't love themselves and could only offer her a crippled reflection. She died from raising children alone.

She died from the lies her grandmother told her mother and her mother
told her about life, men & racism. She died from being sexually abused as a child and having to take that truth everywhere she went every day of her life, exchanging the humiliation for guilt.

She died from asphyxiation, coughing up blood from secrets she kept
trying to burn away instead of allowing herself the kind of nervous
breakdown she was entitled to, but only white girls could afford.

She died from being responsible, because she was the last rung on the
ladder and there was no one under her she could dump on.

She died from being a mother at 15 and a grandmother at 30 and an
ancestor at 45. She died from being dragged down and sat upon by
un-evolved women POSING as sisters and friends.

She died from tolerating Mr. Pitiful, just to have a man around the
house. She died from sacrificing herself for everybody and everything when what she really wanted to do was be a singer, a dancer, or some
magnificent other. She died from lies of omission because she didn't want to bring the black man down.

She died from tributes from her counterparts who should have been
matching her efforts instead of showering her with dead words and
empty songs. She died from myths that would not allow her to show weakness without being chastised by the lazy and hazy.

She died from hiding her real feelings until they became hard and
bitter enough to invade her womb and breasts like angry tumors.
She died from always lifting heavy groceries all by herself.

She died from never being enough of what men wanted, or being too
much for the men she wanted. She died from being too black and died again for not being black enough.

She died from being misinformed about her mind, her body & the extent
of her royal capabilities. She died from knees pressed too close together because respect was never part of the foreplay that was being shoved at her. She died from loneliness in birthing rooms and aloneness in abortion centers.



She died in bathrooms with her veins busting open with self-hatred
and neglect. And sometimes when she refused to die, when she just refused to give in she was killed by the lethal images of blonde hair, blue eyes and flat butts, being rejected by the OJ.'s, the Quincy's, the Cuba's & the Kobe's (just to name a few). Sometimes, she was stomped to death by racism & sexism, executed by hi-tech ignorance while she carried the family in her belly, the community on her head, and the race on her back!

Labels: black folks, social issues, women

posted by ~Kesh @ 6/26/2006 09:58:00 AM